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This is a blurb I read on ESPN, and I wanted to share it because it really crystallized how I think about sports, which, admittedly embarrassing, does in fact get a moderate share of my thoughts.

This is the story of a special game. It's between the New York Knicks and the Houston Rockets, and it happens right after the two teams have made a trade. Because of this, the game really becomes an evaluation of that trade, and thus of the two teams' organizational department. Because while this hinges on the play of the sportsmen, yes, it is also assumed that the players had an objective "playing ability," and that it is possible, if skilled, to propose swaps that bring more "playing ability," if not plain more players, to the team.

The game doesn't matter anymore. The implications of the nature of sports organizations, and their distinct presence in our society, amount to total slavery. Think about starting a basketball team, and especially try to think about what it would be like if basketball were a big part of your life, too. These are your best friends, maybe. Neighborhood kids, who you can trust. To not take advantage of (for show), and to assist you when you find yourself overextended. "Teammate" is only a sports term now, but it has different origins.

From dictionary.com:

bef. 900; ME teme (n.), OE tēam child-bearing, brood, offspring, set of draft beasts; c. D toom bridle, reins, G Zaum, ON taumr"

First of all, to think that we learn the words of a small group of white men in Britain is mind-blowing to me. We all learn it, why? Because it's beautiful? Becsuse it gives us a sense of pride? Or because it's the easiest to talk to authority figures with?

A team was an adjective for a woman. "team woman" meant one who was childbearing. And 'team' was also a noun, meaning a set of children, or animals. The word 'team,' then, stands for things which were important to men's lives when they were created, pets and women. Fellow creatures. Maybe this term is patriarchal, but our history is our history.

Later on a variation of the word appears in German, 'Zaum." T-Z and ea-au have other occurances in in english and german words: the english 'two' is equivalent to the german "zwei," and the german "traum" corresponds to the english "dream." Seriously. D-T-Z is big shit in linguistics. And that german word means "bridle." Now the earlier situation, where both a sense of detachment and communication of feelings were generated by having a word for one's companions, is changed to a term charged with authority, with the ability to hold a bridle and thus steer whatever was bridled.

Sports teams no longer choose with whom they play. Only the very successful ones, like Lebron James or Kobe Bryant, are able to use their position also to craft their own identity; the vast majority of players remaining important mostly as imperfect machines. Producers of statistics. It's all so scienced up now that you know it's nothing like a family- the players don't have the ability to represent themselves anymore, except through flashiness, the courting of your attention.

2. Ex-Knicks Hill and Jeffries Come Up Big

By Chris Sheridan

NEW YORK -- For the first 12 minutes, Tracy McGrady was back in superstar form. But the rest of the afternoon, McGrady's alumni game against his former team was impacted more by the two players the New York Knicks sent to the Houston Rockets in order to acquire McGrady and his mammoth expiring contract.

Jordan Hill, labeled a "bad rookie" by Knicks coach Mike D'Antoni is a particularly harsh pre-game comment, played the final 16:04 and scored 13 of the Rockets' 52 bench points as Houston stayed on the cusp of the Western Conference playoff race by rallying past New York 116-112 Sunday.

Jared Jeffries played all but five seconds of the fourth quarter, drawing three charges and blocking two shots in the final period as coach Rick Adelman went with his subs for most of the final quarter. Houston, ninth in the West, won for the fifth time in six games to move within five games of Portland and 5 1/2 games of seventh-place San Antonio pending the outcome of the Spurs' and Blazers' games later Sunday.

Hill claimed to feel no heightened sense of redemption in helping defeat the team that drafted him No. 8 overall last June, but his feelings might have been different if he were aware what his former coach had said about him 90 minutes before tipoff.

"I don't like to play bad rookies. I like to play good rookies," D'Antoni said, explaining that Hill was not showing enough in practice to warrant playing time ahead of the Knicks' more established frontcourt players. "I do like Jordan. I think he'll be a nice player in the league, but that's as far as it goes."

That comment was relayed afterward to Hill, who was rendered momentarily speechless.

"Didn't hear that, but what can I say? That's him," Hill said. "He's entitled to his own opinion, so if that's the way he feels, that's how he feels. I'm not trying to make a point. I'm just trying to play basketball. I just want to go out there and have fun and play my game."

We're so past all this.

We're postmodern, postgender, postfeminist, postrace,
postcolonialism, postrealism, postidealism, posthaste.
postrock, poststructuralism, postproduction, post-war,
postmortem, postapocalyptic, postpartum, posthardcore.

We are past what our ancestors were, now not just quantitatively, but qualitatively.

But, we have history. And if the knowledge of something exists, that thing exists, and so our
ancestors haunt us with their great struggles and successes. They pass into the realm of myth and imaginary.

But, of course, every generation is past the one that came before. You can't step through the same river twice, and nor can a culture truly stagnate. But it's that sense that we have to do things the way our parents did that really messes up our society, I think.

Perhaps the biggest -ism in our society is ageism.

We are all Cain and Abel.

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What does that mean?

Author. Author-ity. Author-ize. We see these words are connected. I was thinking about this connection and had some interesting thoughts.

Authority and power go together. At least, if you have power, you get to pretend that you are an authority. But if you're an authority, you don't always have power. If you are sticking a gun in my face, I'll say that yes, you're right, 2+2=5. But just because you know more than I do about something doesn't mean I'll listen to you, and there's no way you can make me. Dig?

So what's this authority thing all about? Well, I think it's about creation. It's a little known fact that we all create our own worlds. Not interpret objective reality differently, because there is no such thing as objective reality, but create reality through our perception. "there are no facts, only interpretations." But sometimes, people have different interpretations! What happens then? Well, the one with more "authority" imposes their interpretation on the other. What's happening here is that a world is being destroyed (The world the nonauthority used to live in), and a person is being forcibly moved into the world of the authority. Another hallmark of authority is that it doesn't strive to create more authorities, but wants to keep its own. So soldiers are sent to Iraq, but not consulted on strategy or whether they should stop fighting. Or, I am told things by my professors, but I'm not allowed to stray too far away from what they say, or I will fail.

Authorities are therefore authors. They write us into stories. What kind of story doesn't matter, and this is the secret of authority. Authority, and reactions to it, are what get remembered, and transcribed as relationships of power, by the authors, the authorities, of history. Of course they'll write themselves as having "power," and being in control, since the whole charm of authority is seeming authoritarian. In actual fact the entirety of authority lies in the writing of history, since history contextualizes the present, and influences our actions. Those who tell us of America's great history want us to connect our current country to its past, which no longer exists, or perhaps only ever existed as words on a page. So authorites get credit/blame for things that happen. Hitler is to blame for 16 Million deaths (ludicrous), and Ronald Reagan is given credit for deregulation.

Authority is tautological because it defies logic because it doesn't exist. I have made a little phrase: "Authority is what seems like authority."

[X] is what seems like [X]

X = pornography, racism, homosexuality, a tree.

What must be grasped is that none of these concepts apply to reality. They are only part of a so-far useful construction, called language, that allows us to link thoughts to words. Language took a loong fucking time to develop, I bet. We say our ancestors were all dumb and shit but can you imagine being one of the first people to speak a language, or someone who helped? And they did all of this by accident. The most important things are never expressions of anyone's will, and this is what the illusion of authority tries to hide.

Situations. Authorities write situations. By this I mean that they supply the setting, plot, and characters for a play-like thing that they unfold before the audience/ actors. The secret of authority is that although authorities seem to get s to follow them, they are actually also following us. We go in circles around a field. Authority is a simulation of agency through situation construction.

Happiness is finding a situation you are in to be aesthetically pleasing.

Authorities are the descendants of Cain. They create his sign and have it placed on them. They are the one's asserting themselves destructively, through the destruction of worlds, in an unbalanced world. And Abel, the one who gets killed but is thought fondly of for being virtuous, that is who we are. Of course, there is no authority, and we are everything and nothing as well.
I had an interested German class today.

First of all, I was high. And then, I borrowed a pencil from someone I didn't know, and then my teacher told us about how Germany is kinder to "Others" these days because they legally forbid "hateful"/ offensive speech. Isn't this kinda like abortion? If you make it illegal, it only becomes more dangerous. I didn't understand his point. And then, I learned that "Alles" is a simple noun, with an article "das." It's like saying, "the everything." Except it sounds a lot better. There's also "das All," which I think is something like universe, but I'm not sure.

Then I found out we have to write a love story in German for Monday. Professor Huff said "You can make it about whatever you want. A frog that falls in love with a pig. Entertain me." So I'm going to write an essay about a professor named Stephen Huff who reads a paper by Adam Wadley and falls in love with it and gives it an A+. And then I'm going to see what he gives me! Making life part of my art. I like this idea alot.

I realized how big the world is today! There's so much empty space that things feel unnaturally close. But try looking at the world like you're in a 3D video game! It's sick.
so i set myself a task:
learn how not to ask

about the way authority
imposed itself onto me
was an 'I'
am now a "We"
gone is my humanity.

teacher says, it's alright dear,
your thoughts, you see, are just too queer,
"What's that, dear?"
can only fear
as we blink away a single tear.

I found myself getting biled up at finding myself.
We found ourselves getting riled up at finding ourselves.